Niteblade Blog Train – What a Difference

…a year makes.

First of all, let me just say Happy Anniversary to Niteblade. I volunteered to be a part of the blog train to celebrate the magazine’s fifth anniversary because I love what they publish and think they fill a lovely niche in the speculative market. Yes, they published me, but I’m not biased, I swear 🙂

You should also check out the person the blog train right before me, Alexandra Seidel

I thought it would be difficult to come up with a suitable post topic to tie into Niteblade in some way. However, I took a look at the calendar and realized that I was published by this magazine almost a year ago. My story, Maribelle Remembers Ice, appeared in the September 2011 issue. It was one of my first acceptances after seriously committing to W1S1. It was a story I wrote in the middle of the night in a fit of insomnia. And I realized I’m such a different person now than I was then. Well, I’m the same in that I’m still Brenda. I don’t have black hair anymore, but I still listen to Daft Punk when trying to get work done. I still go to Starbucks way too much and I still fan girl over Doctor Who regularly. But still, I feel different.

It probably has a lot to do with the fact that I’ve spent the majority of this year pregnant. If you’d told me that would be the case this time last year, I’d have laughed at you. “Me? Pregnant? Pshh. That’ll never happen.” I never painted a future for myself with kids in it. Never saw myself as a mother. Never even thought I’d be able to rise to that challenge. I’m too broken. My brain doesn’t function like everyone else’s. I’m not cut out for this.

And still, here I am. And I’m happy that I’m here. Yes, my writing has tapered off a bit in the past couple of months, but there will be time for finishing novels tomorrow. Today, I’m about to embark on the biggest change in my life ever. Thanks, Niteblade for reminding me of where I was and where I am. Things are different. I’m different. That will likely reflect in my writing. But there’s one thing that will never change. I am a writer.

Now let’s see where I’ll be a year from now…

Be sure to check out Kaolin Fire, who’s on the blog train tomorrow.

The Sunshine Award

I’ve been slacking on this blogging business lately, so I’m super thankful to A. G. Carpenter for tagging me for the Sunshine Award. 1.) I’m happy she thought of me and 2.) I have a built-in blog topic. Woot!

So, here are the rules of this meme:

  • include the Logo and a link to who nominated you
  • write 10 things about yourself
  • nominate and link to 10 more awesome people for the award

Okay, yeah that does sound pretty easy. Let’s get to it, shall we?

10 Interesting (Or Not-So-Interesting) Things About Me

1. One of the first stories I ever wrote was about a fire-breathing sand man that lived in a hot air balloon. Yeah, I don’t know either.

2. I love animals of all kinds and had pet rats up until last year. In the colder months, they’d sit in the hood on my sweatshirt or even in my sleeves as I sat at the computer.

3. I married my high school prom date.

4. I always said I never wanted kids because I was afraid of mirroring negative relationships in my life. But now that I’m pregnant, I couldn’t be happier. Part of me is irrationally terrified that I’ll make the same mistakes as others, but most of me knows I won’t. And that’s comforting.

5. I don’t think my mom has ever read a single one of my stories.

6. My sister-in-law is pregnant with a girl and due three weeks after me. Super cute they’ll be so close in age.

7. I’m fairly certain I’ve suffered from depression for over 10 years and anxiety even longer than that.

8. When I was in elementary school, I tried to stage a play about kids that found a haunted house with a dead person trapped in the walls.

9. One of my favorite authors is Stephen King. In fact, I’d go so far as to say his work is the reason I wanted to become a writer in the first place.

10. I don’t have a handle on this whole “being an adult” thing. It’s getting better but I still have no idea what I’m doing half the time. I don’t know if it reassures me or terrifies me that everyone else likely feels the same way.

Tag, You’re It!

What follows are the people I’m tagging for the Sunshine Award. I’ll try to link to their posts should they decide to make them. 🙂

1. Matthew Barron – My husband and father of our child. He’s awesome.

2. Michael Haynes – Fantastic writer and friend. Read his stuff!

3. Amy & Ken Noel – A twofer! Super cool people with a blog you should read.

4. Danni Menard – Always interesting and supportive.

5. Samuel Mae – Fellow writer and editor. Purveyor of pie-related temptation.

6. Brittany Marczak – Fun Twitter friend and fellow writer.

7. Lauren Orbison – Great writer and always offers words of encouragement.

8. Wendy Wagner – Can you say awesome?

9. Justine McGreevy – Writer and artist extraordinaire.

10. Anya Breton – Writer and always around to lend support on Twitter.

“Carapace” Published at Ray Gun Revival

This post is super delayed, but I definitely wanted to take a moment to jot down my thoughts about the latest story I’ve had published. It’s called “Carapace” and you can check it out right now at Ray Gun Revival.

This story actually started as a very brief flash piece. I think I wrote it for a 100-word flash competition but I can’t remember when or what for. Needless to say, I didn’t win. The story sat on my hard drive for several months until I revisited it and decided to expand it. A whole world came out in the revision and I was pretty pleased with the result. I got excellent feedback from beta readers too, including Lydia S. Gray.

It’s super pulpy and not very much like other things I write, but that may be why it was so fun. I hope you enjoy it!